Today, I was caught by little annoyances.
I had just finished my Walmart online grocery order and before I could press ‘reserve’, it emptied my cart. I had a list and I new what I needed. But it was still annoying.
I have a cold and I could barely sit up long enough with out my head pounding to function without ample caffeine in me. My husband brought me water and then I fell asleep for what must have been 2 hours – woke up with my church makeup all looking crazy except for my fabulous lipstick that doesn’t smudge – but my hair… somebody call the doctor.
And why can’t I get the chair to desk combination set just right while I type? It always seems to be too high or too low. These are my troubles…now what to do about them… they aren’t going to go away.
I did the laundry and the dishes while my husband drove the kids where they needed to be. I didn’t micro manage. I didn’t suggest. This is the kind of team work we have to work on — doing what needs to be done to run a family and take care of one another. And doing it so the people want to return home.
Only Jesus can help me live well. Only Jesus can impart gentleness, goodness,forgiveness patience, hope in me.
I called my mom to hear her voice so I might feel less like I have a cold and it worked a little…
Or it got me thinking and I forgot how annoying hot lava feels running down my insides. I did not expect my mama to fix my troubles. I did not think in my mind and barry in my heart that my life would work SO much better if I lived next door to my Mama. This is progress for me and maturing.
Deepened trust in my Heavenly Father and His presence and availability in my life.
We can’t lean on our blessings – our human relationships so much that they become our little gods. The Bible calls this idolatry. It’s so sneakily disguised as “good and right” but it’s anything but that when it’s making us act ugly or miss our purpose in life.
There are a few things in life that seem acceptable to man but God who really knows because He invented it all says, NO. Or better yet He says “Be holy now in everything you do.”
And in case you are like me and the word holy is well weird to you – well its definition isn’t weird at all – it’s soothing and peaceful. Like broth going down your throat – broth that has been simmered all day in vegetables (by someone who has that kind of time.) Holiness is something that we have to quiet the insides of our heart long enough to receive from God.
We don’t make ourselves holy. That’s Gods job and be glad because He doesn’t EVER slam doors or get cranky when He has a cold. God is the hot hot apples sauce you want at your table.
And go ahead and invite Him in~ HE CAN’T WAIT TO COME!!